[Personal] Feeling really hopeless and defeated over my acne today

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26, F. My acne has me feeling really down lately. Every day when I wake up and look in the mirror I hate what I see. I don't like going out anymore because I don't want to see friends/family looking like this. I'm involved in a new social group which I'm really excited about, but I'm so self conscious meeting new people with my skin this way. I just want to hide.I feel like my acne makes me look like a dirty, awkward teenager and that it makes people not take me seriously professionally. Lacking confidence isn't helping career-wise either. Because of my acne, I'm hyper sensitive to the rest of my appearance. Since I already have acne working against me, I feel like I need to look perfect in every other way. It's causing me a lot of stress and anxiety. I can't afford a frizzy hair day, or to skip the iron/steamer, or the lint brush. My clothes must be perfectly clean and tailored, my shoes in perfect shape. My nails are always done and never chipped. Everything has to be impeccable to compensate for my acne. It's draining. I also have back and chest acne so I have a lot of clothes I can't wear anymore.I'm seeing a dermatologist and doing everything recommended by her and by smart people on the internet. I'm taking spironolactone. I use tretinoin cream. I take off all my makeup every night and use cerave gentle cleanser. I try not to over exfoliate. I use PTR AHA/BHA exfoliating pads, an AHA/BHA cleanser, and a clarisonic, but try to avoid over using any of these. I use the cerave moisturizer my derm suggested. I never skip my routine (sometimes take a night off from tretinoin, but still wash/moisturize) and have never missed a pill.I'm doing everything my derm suggested and everything that seems to have worked for just about every other person on the internet. WHY isn't it working for me? Why do I look like this when I'm doing everything right?It seems everyone around me has beautiful skin. They look lovely and effortless. They look mature while I look like an awkward teenager. I feel out of place socially because everyone else is beautiful and put together, but I'm an awkward pimply pig. I'm just feeling really down on myself. I don't want to hate myself. I don't want to hide. I want to enjoy life, do fun things, and not feel embarrassed the whole time.
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