Beauty Tips For Body Care
Hi SCA,I think I just need to sit down and write about how I'm feeling because I'm in a dark place and I really don't know what to do anymore.I've been back on Yasmin for my acne for 4 and a half months and I thought I was beginning to see some improvements and I was definitely feeling better in myself. But my skin can just go awol at the drop of a hat. On Saturday I was starting to feel a lot better and felt my skin was improving and by today (Wednesday) my skin looks awful, I've picked it and now it's a mess and I'm an even bigger mess. I feel like my whole world is crashing around me but nobody understands what is wrong with me. My relationship with my boyfriend is deteriorating, I can see he has had enough. There's only so much he can say, but it's every week/every few days that I'm crying and miserable.My acne isn't cystic or even 'severe' but it's persistent and I'm always covered in tiny closed comedones which never go. I try to leave them and see if it helps but they just stay for months and months. I will then pick at them and sometimes they come out and will heal or won't come out and just scab over and stay there. The ones that do heal just reappear in the same places on my face though within a couple of weeks.I have tried all recommended here but nothing seems to help. I am tempted to try accutane but I don't know if I will be able to convince a dermatologist to put me on it. I don't feel my skin is severe enough for it, although I've seen people with mild acne on it on Instagram. Seeing a dermatologist requires a gp referral though and a long waiting list I would imagine and I'm struggling to even get a gp appointment.Everyday is a battle, I'm getting to the point where I don't even want to get up anymore. When my alarm goes off in the morning I instantly feel fed up and almost close to tears at the thought of facing another day. I think I am depressed, it's really not normal to feel this way. I think about my skin constantly and can't even concentrate on anything anymore because all I am thinking about is my skin. It is getting worse day by day and it's getting to the point that I don't do anything. I go to work Monday-Friday and hate every moment, I hate interacting or talking to anyone. I definitely probably appear moody and anti social to everyone. I am constantly on the edge of bursting into tears and it is all getting too much. As soon as I get back from work I wash my face and sit in the darkness with all the curtains drawn. I look forward to the weekends where I don't have the anxiety and pressure of talking to people. I don't do anything, I don't meet friends and I will make up all the excuses under the sun to get out of anything. My boyfriend is fed up, we hardly even talk.. He will probably leave me soon, I can feel it.I just wanted to write this post to reach out, I don't even want any advice I guess, I just want someone to listen. I can't even think clearly anymore about normal day to day things, my mind is just thinking about my face and how disgusting it is all day everyday, my life is falling apart and I can't see a way out.
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