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I have had forehead acne for years now. It never seems to clear up. There's always a new whitehead, a splatter of closed comedones. As if that wasn't bad enough, my skin is red from PIE. From far away, it seems fine, but close up...well it's not a pretty sight. At the beginning, I had a relatively neutral attitude towards my acne. I knew it was bad, but I figured that a) it could be worse, b) I'm a teenager and everyone has acne now, c) it'll eventually go away. But my attitude changed as I heard more and more comments on my acne. Of course, there are my relatives who talk about my acne out of concern for me. This didn't bother me too much, since I knew they were trying to help. The worst is when people talk about my acne like it's the only thing they see about me. The first time this happened was when I saw my neighbor (who I barely know) on the street once. I politely greeted her, and before saying even "hi", she stared at my forehead and said, "Wow you have so many pimples". This hurt me deeply. I started obsessing over my acne. I guess it was a blessing in disguise because I found this subreddit during my obsessive acne research binges. But that comment definitely made me MUCH more self-conscious about my forehead (where all of my acne is). The most recent case of this was when my best friend came to pick me up. Her mother was driving since she was running errands and could drop us off along the way. I was waiting at the curb and the car drove right past me. I was slightly taken aback since both my friend and her mom have known me for over a decade and see my regularly, but I didn't think much of it as I jogged over. When I got in the car, the mom looked really surprised. She said, "I didn't think that was you back there. I don't remember you having so much acne." This just crushed me, even though I tried to brush it off. My body shape, the rest of my face, my hair--none of these were big enough indicators of who I was. The acne overpowered it all. This also reminded me of the times long long ago when I had clear, beautiful skin. This happened a few days ago and I've been thinking about this comment ever since. That day I was even wearing an outfit that made me feel pretty damn confident and that comment just felt like a bucket of cold water. I'm not blaming anyone for the comments they made. Of course, they could all be more tactful but at the end of the day, it's true, I DO have a lot of acne. I try not to obsess over it but when people comment on your acne like it's the ONLY thing they see about you, it hurts. All in all, I wrote this post because I'm really down because of these comments and because (obviously) my acne shows now signs of going away. (I suspect its fungal acne so I'm using ketaconazole shampoo on my forehead, so I'll see what happens there.)
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