Beauty Tips For Body Care
I used to have amazing skin when I was 19. That was also the last time I had amazing skin in my life.I've tried so many things and seen a derm more than once. I've had my days where I lay down in bed to cry about how much my face hurts. The swollen pus filled, deep sitting cystic acne that won't let me live. The blackheads and whiteheads and closed comedones that taunt me every chance they get. I have spent so much time working through so many breakouts - looking, hoping, trying for that one combination of things that will fix this forever. I've read so many studies and tried so many things over the last 8 years. I've had my days where it hurt so much to feel so ugly. Knowing that when other people see my bare face, it's the first thing they will see, is a painful reality.I am so tired of fighting with my skin. I'm tired of having to find something new everytime the last thing stops working. I'm tired of waiting to feel pretty and comfortable in my skin. I'm so tired of the bacne and the pimples between my breasts.I'm tired of looking at other peoples faces, wondering what it feels like to not think about your face every other minute. It hurts so much to wakeup every morning and run to the mirror in the hopes of seeing if any of the pimples healed over night. It's cumbersome when I'm not wearing makeup out. It's cumbersome to wear makeup everyday.I don't care anymore of my skin never heals. I just want to feel ok in it. I want it to stop haunting my mind. I want it to stop hurting me. I want to look in the mirror and be ok with what's there. I'm so sad with this never ending cycle.If you read this, thank you. Thank you for just listening to the pain I'm carrying.
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