Beauty Tips For Body Care
My boss took everyone out to lunch today. I made up a reason to not go along because I didn't want my face to ruin everyone's appetite.Proceeded to cry in the bathroom for 20 minutes begging myself not to have a full meltdown.After work go to cvs minute clinic to basically beg and come up with any lie I can to get antibiotics or ANYTHING. Catch people staring at me trying to figure out if I'm actually a creature or a human being. Make eye contact and they quickly look away. Couldn't even stay my full wait time, got in my car and had a full fledge breakdown.I just...I can't do it anymore. I give up. When I get one cyst to shrink in size (not even go away, just shrink) two more pop up. Last week I heard 2 grown men commenting on my appearance while running work errands. A few days ago I swear I heard a woman in the office say "thats the one they were talking about." I'm ashamed to represent my company. I'm ashamed to leave the house. Im ashamed to ride in my tintless car. Lying to family about Thanksgiving plans because I just cant do it. I dont even want food. I dont feel like I deserve to eat. Mental health is really something bc I swear I'm being marked and blistered bc I deserve it.This isn't a productive post at all, and probably won't be recieved well. Im not asking for help. I know there's a lot of ppl here who get 2 whiteheads and call themselves disgusting. A lot of 16 year olds wanting to clear up a "monster zit" in time for a school dance. I dont mean to condescend but this rant isnt for you.I think I just need encouragement from people who understand.
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