Beauty Tips For Body Care
I am 24 F, and I've been struggling with acne since high school. It really started getting worse once I was a freshman in college. I have hormonal, adult acne and I've tried to treat it with everything. It was somewhat manageable before I started using curology back in May. I had SO MUCH hope for curology to fix my problems, however they made them SO much worse. I'm really happy for the people that curology actually worked for, but to me, they preyed on my biggest insecurity and made it much worse, and so much harder for me to deal with. So in October I stopped curology because I wasn't going to let my skin get any worse. I recently started using benzoyl peroxide again (didn't use it on curology) and now I'm purging from that product, and my skin is fucking terrible. I was hydrating it so much on curology but now my skin is dry and flakey. I'm willing to deal with it if my acne goes away. Everyday I am emotionally and mentally drained from my obsession with my acne.I am a bartender and I work in a high volume night club. I know how to do makeup well so I can hide the acne but there's only so much you can cover. If light hits my face the wrong way it's a nightmare, no matter how much foundation I use. The thing is at work, both men and women are constantly going out of their way to tell me "how beautiful" I am or compliment my appearance in some way. I get asked out on dates a few times a week. I know I'm not ugly and I'm so flattered when people compliment me. But I only feel good about it for a minute, before I look in the mirror and focus in on my skin (I can't help it at all) and think "my God I would be so much prettier without a face full of acne." And boom back to square one, feeling like I'm the ugliest thing. I'm constantly wondering if people are noticing it as much as me. They probably are, but I'd like to think I notice more than anyone - keeps me sane.I don't have "sleepovers" with anyone but my best friend, because I know she thinks I'm beautiful no matter what and I am very comfortable around her. Besides that, I often tell myself that I am like Princess Fiona (from Shrek) and while people think I'm this pretty girl during the day, I have this hideous secret that forces me to be alone at night. I live alone so that's bascially how I live my life. While my acne is certainly the vain of my existence, the princess thing helps me deal with it mentally. Maybe it can help anyone here who is facing the same issues as me. I'm just so exhausted at this point. I don't want 85% of my thoughts to be about my acne anymore. I'm so done obsessing, and the immense toll this has taken on my mental health. I am depressed and I am convinced that my acne issues/my obsession with my acne issues are making my depression a lot worse. I made an appointment to see the dermatologist next month. I've been to one in the past (about 4 years ago) but it didn't yield the best results because I wasn't taking my antibiotics as prescribed. This time I WILL get rid of my acne, or at least have it down to only a couple pimples a month.Thanks for reading guys, I hope some of you can relate
Girls Blog 2015
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