Beauty Tips For Body Care
I can’t deal with how I look like anymore. My acne has taken over my life and I don’t feel happy anymore. I just don’t. I'm 22 and I've had severe cystic acne since I was 14 or 15. My skin is absolute destroyed. Every inch of my face is covered in painful bumps, hyperpigmentation or these little scars that look like pin pricks. No amount of makeup can disguise the texture and looking in the mirror makes me want to vomit.I also just feel so hopeless. I have spent so much money, hours reading about skincare (im really active here on my main and on ab), I gave up sugar, dairy and gluten for 3 months one summer and nothing. I have tried pretty much every prescription out there except accutane. I had a doctor finally agree to do it late 2015 but I was about to go abroad for junior year and I didn't want to give it up but then I got super sick so I couldn't take accutane and then life just kept happening and I thought I would finally take it this summer but I then tore my mcl and displaced my kneecap and just had surgery. And now I'm just honestly scared of accutane the side effects seem horrible and some people are never the same and I just have a shitty body/health overall. Even if I can take accutane there is no way I can ever afford the lazer treatments needed to get rid of the scaring. I'm just never going to be in the position to have an extra 2-3 grand because rn I am a school teacher and even if I go to law school I don't plan on going into the more well paying specialties.But I also can't stand looking like this forever.I feel like acne stole part of my youth from me. I've never had any confidence about my looks and I never felt good enough to put myself out there and I was obviously never approached. I wonder if it gets any better. I’m so sick of feeling like this and I wish I could feel happy again with my appearance. Its just so scary like I'm 22 and I'm getting old and who knows how old I'll be before I am finally average looking like not even pretty I am just so sick of looking like a swamp monster.I don’t know if I’m even allowed to rant on this if it’s not allowed i’m sorry and feel free to remove but like thanks for reading my pathetic thoughts
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