Beauty Tips For Body Care
To preface this, the acne issues I dealt with years ago created so much anxiety for me that it almost ruined my academic career and destroyed my self esteem to the point where my social life was falling apart as well because I wasn’t comfortable with myself or being seen in public. I know this is something I need to work on and I have no one to blame but myself for letting it destroy me.So for about three months now I had been talking to a girl that I was starting to fall in love with. She, however did not start reciprocating these feelings until about two weeks ago when everything came together and she told me she felt something and saw us going somewhere in this relationship. Of course, the very next day this all happened, I had the worst skin breakout I’ve had in several years.So now the stars align with this girl two weeks ago, but the acne gods decide to shake things up. The week following, my anxiety reaches peak levels. I’m paranoid. Afraid to see her but I know I need to strike while the iron is hot so I force myself to, but the whole time my anxiety is bringing out a horrible side of me. Within a matter of a week after she admits her feelings for me she tells me she lost that feeling and I can’t help but think it’s because of the person I became in that week. Like I said, I have no one to blame but myself but I needed to vent and get this off my chest because it’s wrecked me this past week. I’ve taken a big step and tomorrow I’ll be going to my first therapist appointment, but i can’t get over how much I let the breakout consume me and ultimately destroy whatever I had built with this girl. Perhaps I’m wrong. There could be other factors. But the sudden shift in emotion over just a 7 day period where I was at my lowest mentally in a long time..... well when there’s smoke there’s usually fire.TL:DR - skin broke out at the most pivotal moment in my “relationship” with a girl, caused so much anxiety within me and let it turn me into a different/not enjoyable person which I think ultimately drove her away
Girls Blog 2015
Submitted by AfterIllustrator7
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