I'm done. [personal]

Beauty Tips For Body Care
Let me preface by saying that everyone who partakes in this subreddit is smart, beautiful, and worth so much. But I personally, am calling it quits.I am making the decision to go on Accutane for the second time. The first time I took it, I only really took it for about 3 months (so I didn't hit my cumulative dose whatsoever), and it actually worked for like 9 months after. But even after starting spiro, my skin is back to where it was pre-Accutane.I know a lot of people think that going on Accutane is a form of giving up. But to me, it's quite the opposite. I know in my heart that I have tried everything I can do to clear up my skin without Accutane, I've tried antibiotics, moisturizing more, retinol, different cleansers, different spot treatments, etc. I've tried giving up dairy, bread, sugar, coffee, processed foods, gluten, soy, nuts, peanut butter, and everything else you can think of. Sure, maybe it made a teeny tiny difference, but the diets were not a sustainable option for me. My quality of life seriously dropped when I would cut out literally everything except for fruits and vegetables, especially as a college student on a meal plan.I'm also tired of reading ingredients and chemical formulas in skin care products to try to determine if a product will irritate or break out my sensitive skin. I shouldn't need a chemistry degree or a Ph.D. in dermatology to have clear skin.I'm tired of spending $ trying out new vitamins, ones that actually made my health so much worse because I didn't do the proper research before. Or ones that made my skin even worse.I'm tired of waking up every day hoping that I will have clear skin; hoping that one of my products will start working. I'm tired of me basing my level of happiness off the state of my skin. I'm tired of skipping events and making up excuses to not go to things that should make me happy just because my skin is not in the condition I want it to be. I'm tired of waking up early to put on makeup and going to bed last to wash my face after everyone is in bed so my roommates don't see me without makeup.I want to volunteer for a few years in Central America and live without makeup, or I want to go camping, or I literally just want to go swimming with my friends and not feel insecure. I hope no one suffers through acne the way that I do; mine is only mild/moderate depending on the day but I have some major self-esteem issues. And I know I need to work on that outside of skincare; having clear skin won't solve all the problems in my life. But I'm tired of suffering.Looking back to when I had clear skin from the first round of Accutane, I was happier than I had been in years. And I am not selfish for wanting that back.So yes, I am taking Accutane again. Who knows who my skin will stay clear after. But I want to start living in the moment, and not having clear skin makes that extremely difficult for me. And if anyone else out there is on the fence about taking Accutane: just do it. I know that everyone makes the side effects seem terrifying, or they talk about the effect it has on your body as if its chemotherapy. But if acne is seriously affecting your mental health and your quality of life, then Accutane is right for you.thank you if you read this far :)
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Submitted by kanthony2019