[Skin Concern] Depressed to the point of tears and unable to look in the mirror because of my micro-needling result

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I will perhaps be writing very short because this is a pain for me to write about.I am currently 21, and I got laser microneedling done at age 19-20.I had a severe case of acne caused by treatment on Accutane. It left pitted marks in my face. I do not remember how severe because I hardly took photos of myself then (was heavily depressed during my Accutane days and after).I knew very little about skin care, and did not have the desire to look into ways about treating my skin after Accutane. My parents arranged for microneedling to be done as recommended by my dermatologist. I passively went along with it. The microneedling was done by a nurse, and the dermatologist was very not involved with the treatment process. The last time I saw him was during the appointment to decide upon microneedling.She promoted Skinceuticals to me, and told me to use the Blemish Age+Defence serum, the Skin Discolouration serum, and Phyto Corrective serum on my face after I started scabbing (which took place 3-5 days after treatment). I was also told to use the LHA cleanser after scabbing. I was given a small hydrating sample serum.I did the treatments a total of 2 times spread out. It was supposed to be three treatments, but the third was never bothered with because of finances and didn't seem worth while.I did not look into anything about post care of microneedling. I was all so passive, and listened to her.I feel the exfoliating serums damage my face when it was healing, and the results now are worse to what I looked like before microneedling. My face seems to have lost elasticity and my pitted scars are very big on my face.I hate looking at myself in my bathroom mirror because of the bright lights...or really just in mirrors in general.My parents lost thousands of dollars because of my apathy, and those Skinceutical products.Accutane though did save my skin from crazy breakouts I got during my teens. I sometimes get hormonal acne though, and birth control seemingly helps with that.I feel like I look very haggard.I also suffered depression in my teens, and went also passively along with my parents' decision to get me braces. When I went for braces check up, I hardly communicated with the orthodontist. Was not interested in the process. Similar to my microneedling. I rarely wore my retainer at night after the time period of wearing it constant through the day. I am now paying the price of not being able to fit in my retainer no longer and teeth look slightly crooked again. I know. Very not skin related.I guess all of this a vent, and I don't know where to post.I thought some of you might give some help on what to do next with my skin.
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