[personal] I resent my learned obsession with sunscreen and the effect its had on my relationship with ageing

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I'm wondering if any of you can identify with this mindset I've now found myself in - I feel overly guilty when I don't wear sunscreen. I'm 25 and have had a few wrinkles since I hit 20 because of my super-pale skin. It never bothered me before, but I feel as though ever since I discovered the importance of SPF protection in the fight against wrinkles it's created a feeling in me that visibly ageing will be the worst thing that could happen, something I never thought or worried about before. I find myself worrying about wrinkles on a sunny day instead of enjoying the moment. I find myself unfairly judging other people for having wrinkles. I feel like I've spent an inordinate amount of time and money in my 20s trying to prevent the inevitable, trying to prevent something that wouldn't even be a big deal. When I realised that sunscreen had become an obsession, I stopped. I'm not going to wear it until Springtime next year. I feel guilty though and I don't know why the hell I do. Why do I feel guilty about getting lines on MY face? Guilty about not wearing sunscreen in the winter? There's so many worse things that could happen, ageing should be the least of my worries. Still though, I can't get this seed of dread out of my head and it seems to be growing over time. How do you rebuild a healthy relationship with ageing?
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