[Skin concerns] picking has left my pores destroyed and gaping

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CW skin picking mentions, some blood mention. I have checked out r/Dermatillomania but the community is too small and inactive.For about 4 years, I've struggled with Dermatillomania- a compulsive skin picking disorder. On good days, my face is red and puffy for hours after with a little bit of blood. Bad days... let's not think about that. Maybe because I'm still young (18,) it has healed remarkably well and I have few actual scars from cults and lesions. The real problem is my gaping pores.Over the years, I have used fingernails, toothpicks, tweezers, scissors, forks, toothbrushes, knives, needles, and more to try and pry sebum from pores. As for "skincare," I've used awful DIY stuff like toothpaste, rubbing alcohol, lemon, literal acid, and more. I have a better understanding of skincare now and now use reliable and healing products which have helped immensely.As for my pores, I can see them on my nose and under-eye/cheek several feet away in the mirror. They're pretty big, dark holes by now. Theoretically, if I stopped picking cold-turkey, would the pores ever seal up again? Is there any product or routine that could help them shrink? Also, the lesions have mostly healed now (except the pores,) but will the scars and lines from picking come back to haunt me when I'm older? I'm honestly feeling doomed right now.If you guys know anything, pls lmk. Thank you! <3
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