Beauty Tips For Body Care
I (17M) have been struggling with an unknown skin problem for 14 months, with no signs of it ever going away.For context, about 14 months ago I began scratching a spot on my stomach that I thought was irritated and would go away shortly. IT DID NOT. The scratching soon spread throughout my body, and soon there were itchy red scabs all over me.The biggest mistake of my life was keeping it a secret for a month, and I didn't tell my parents, thinking it would go away quickly. I had never had any skin problems in my life before. In November 2020, when it became extremely bad my mom finally allowed us to go to a dermatologist.The dermatologist was not helpful. She took one look at my skin and immediately concluded the spots as "bug bites". This confused me and my mom because I was not going outside (this was right in the middle of COVID, and I was doing online school at home). We had no pets and I rarely even went outside. We checked beds and couches and chairs and no sign of any bugs or insects.The dermatologist did prescribe an ointment, which helped reduce the severity, but did not take away the irritation and need to scratch. I would scratch without realizing and scratch in my sleep, waking up with small blood stains on my bedsheets. Once I ran out of the ointment, the severity increased again (although not to what it was at first).In January 2020, we went back to the same dermatologist to see if anything had changed, but she adamantly claimed it was the same thing, gave us another prescription, and we left.The scratching got better, then, once I ran out of the ointment in March, I went right back to scratching. My parents thought it must be stress-related since I was feeling very stressed about school and starting the college application process (SAT, etc.) in the following months.Flash forward to a few months ago, I began my senior year back in person. Obviously stress-levels were at an all time high, and my scratching came back and ready to kill. My parents refuse to take me to the dermatologist because they think that it won't help since she hasn't helped for the last times.The scratching has left dark spots all over my body and made me hate my body more than I ever have. I know the darkness goes away with time, but it surely can't go away if I keep scratching it and making it dark again.I just feel stuck and like nothing I do will ever help. I live every second focusing on trying not to scratch instead of living the moment. I sleep with gloves and socks on my hands to try to not break my skin in the night when I cannot control myself. I wore long sleeves and pants in summer to hide the dark spots on my arms and legs. My parents don't know the effect it has on my brain and it causes me very lowered self esteem.I'm not too sure what the point of this post is but I really just wanted to get this off my chest because I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone in real life about it. Does anyone have any suggestions of what I should do? Should I try and get a different dermatologist? I'm scared that even if I go to a different one they will just result in the same loop I've been suffering in for a year.Thanks for reading.
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Submitted by hatemyskin22
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