[Acne][Personal] I feel uncomfortable in my bare skin and I have anxiety attacks occasionally because of my skin.

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Background story: I've been struggling with acne since I was 16. My condition peaks, then troughs. Was put on antibiotics which worked, but only when I was on the course of it. It seems that every time I experience a change in environment, my skin will decide to act up. Last year, I had a very bad bout of closed comedones problem, which then turn into a full-blown outbreak. I refused to use birth controls, or accutane (which was never suggested by my GP because most doctors think that my condition is moderate-mild). I've been trying countless products and finally found a routine which works for me. I am also currently undergoing laser treatments which have helped tremendously.BUT, my skin is still far from perfect. I still have PIH and some occasional outbreaks, and I am still very inferior about my bare skin. It honestly doesn't look THAT bad but it still doesn't look 'normal' yet. I get very panicky about showing my bare face infront of people, because I am afraid of what they'll comment about it.In the past, my SO's mum used to look at my face and asked me why was it like that, and tried to recommend me some products. I know that she does it out of concern but it definitely didn't help with my all time low confidence level. Then when my skin got better but with PIH, she kept asking why are there still so many pimples on my face when they are all PIH. I explained to her that it was PIH but she just brushed it off and said it wasn't because to them older people who isn't into skincare terms and such, pigmentation = age spot, freckles and the likes. I would've blew my temper if she wasn't my SO's mum, honestly. I tried my best to put these matters aside, but I'm actually still very much affected by it. When I'm over at my SO's place, I try to hide in his room as much as possible after dinner or what not, especially when I''m not wearing make up. Even when my complexion has improved a lot, I still feel very concerned about his mum looking at my skin because sometimes I feel her staring at my face but she just doesn't say anything.I also get very uncomfortable when people stare at my skin when I tell them I'm currently undergoing laser treatments, or just stare at my face in general. I also get very awkward and anxious and I refuse to look at anyone in the eye when I have no make up on. It sucks and I think they only solution for this is for me to get my good skin asap, which I'm looking forward to.But now, I just have to live with this awkwardness.Does anyone of you feel the same way as I do? Because at times, I'm starting to think that I am depressed about my condition and it does affect my relationship too :(
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