Beauty Tips For Body Care
So to start off I've had psoriasis since I can remember. I remember one of my classmates in the fifth grade touching my poofy bangs and what seemed like an avalanche of dandruff falling out of it. Humiliating.I've had cysts under my armpits, in and around my pubic area since my son was born (around 5 years ago). When my son was around 1 my face exploded with painful red areas. It was like psoriasis but without the flakes... and burned when I cried because of the salt of my tears getting into the affected areas under my eyes. My GP gave me a pretty hefty infusion of cortisone and it went away nd hasn't shown back up (on my face at least thank god)This last year has been an absolute nightmare for me. In the spring of 2014 I broke up with my son's father. Due to financial situations my son and i had to live with him. We were there for almost 6 months after the break up. Around that time (easter) I took pro biotics since I read that it could help people with psoriasis. It was a lie. For one week I got to experience what it felt like to have no flakes, no scales and no worry that people would think I'm dirty because of the dandruff in my hair. After that week is when my personal hell on earth started.My ear became infected, burning red and leaking stinky yellow sebum. Went to the dermatologist and she prescribed me a cream and the redness and sebum went away... only to return on my scalp(a few months after my ear cleared up). There were mornings where I would wake up and my pillowcase would be full of sebum. My hair would be matted to my head and since it had dried during the night it was painful to wash that shit out. The smell was another factor. It smelled so terribly that I would douse my hair with perfume so people wouldn't have to smell pure rotten stink. I cried every single night until my dermatologist could see me again (it took around a month to get an appointment).During this month of waiting, my ex kicked my son and I out. I was homeless for around 2 weeks until a friend offered me his apartment to stay in until I found a place of my own (luckily I found something a week or two after moving in).The first night in the hotel my armpits hurt. Hurt like someone had placed a hot poker there and burned me. The next morning my armpit was ravaged; bright red, open wound in the middle and extremely dry. I tried to keep it hydrated with vaseline, but it didn't help. The pain would not go away. Due to circumstances I couldn't see the dermatologist on my appointed day.It took about a month for me to see me GP about my armpit and head. I showed him everything, my armpit, public area, butt crack and under my breasts were red and painful. He looked at it all and I swear he pitied me. He told me that I can't keep living like this and to get to the dermatologist right away. He called them himself, explained what was going on with me and I got an appointment for the next day.Their diagnosis was a skin infection. I was prescribed cortisone creams and anti Fungal creams which helped for a while but my symptoms kept coming back. I was losing my hair. Every passing day made my self esteem fall lower and lower. I avoided looking in the mirror so I wouldn't have to see how horrible I looked.On a trip to my parents it all came to a head. I had a swollen gland under my armpit for about a week. I could neither lift nor put my arm down all the way without immense pain. I was miserable. But, after the gland went back to normal, my armpit stopped hurting. It's almost completely clear of any Type of rash. I could hardly believe it.I started washing my hair with T gel shampoo, and the difference was like night and day. NO more sebum pouring out of my scalp. No more stink coming off my head (unless the tar smell counts as stinky). I cried when I saw it was working. At that point I had been dealing with my scalp "leaking" for over a year...Today I'm still not completely free of my skin problems. My butt crack looks stained. It's brown, and it makes me feel dirty.. even if I've just come out of the shower. My butt is full of dark brown spots from pimples that started showing up once the small lesions that had shown up all over my stomach/groin went away (I forgot to mention that before. They were small red spots all over my midsection with one dry bigger spot nearby).I hate looking at myself. My face is clear because of the birth control I started in November of 2014, so anyone looking at me wouldn't know how disgusting I really am. I went to the dermatologist on Tuesday and she gave me an anti bacterial body wash for the pimples on my butt. I hope it will work. I'm tired of waking up to bad things all over my body. Who would want to have sex with someone that has pimples all over her ass, a stained brown butt crack and can't shave her pubic area because the skin there is full of red areas from psoriasis? I don't really know what to do anymore. I'm tired. Just... tired.
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