Beauty Tips For Body Care
Sorry I don't know if this is the right place for this I just need to vent and rant but I literally feel like I'm about to cry. Nothing I've used works on my skin. My acne isn't even severe but my old dermatologist told me I had an extremely persistant case of acne. I've been on everything since I was 13 years old. Retin-a, trentinoin, differin, epiduo, anything you can think of I've tried it and nothing helped. Literally the only thing that has ever worked was Absoriba (accutane). I was on it for 6 months 2 years ago and my skin was perfect. Then when I finished my 6 months, my acne came suddenly back full force after 2 months like I was never even on it. All that money and progress was completely fucking wasted. I don't understand why.My skin calmed down a bit since then, but it was still persistant. So I went to see a different dermatologist in January and she gave me Differin. I was on it for around 4 months and it just made my skin worse and worse, the worst I've ever seen it compared to the accutane purging. My skin felt like one giant sore red pimple. There was literally no improvement beyond 12 weeks, so I took myself off of it. I moved to a different state also, so I couldn't even go see that dermatologist for a consulation, but Differin completely destroyed my skin. I regret ever using Differin because my skin didn't even seem that bad compared to how it is now. I don't know what it did, but it completely altered my skin and now I suffer from constant acne all the time on my face, deep painful red ones that keep popping up.I know it's unfair but I blame that dermatologist for ruining my skin. It was only after taking Differin that my skin became a complete mess. I'm still covered by my parents health insurance for now, but they have an extremely high deductible and going to see a dermatologist and getting prescriptions is basically like I have no insurance, so I can't even see a derm now. I was desperate and went to a walk in clinic downtown instead, and the doctor gave me a generic for benzaclin (BP and clindamycin) and doxycycline 100mg. I had to pay out of pocket so going back is out of the question but i was too desperate. It's helped ease some damage from the Differin but it's still awful.I just feel like tearing and scratching off my face. I look at other peoples' skin and they have no marks, no acne, no blackheads, and i don't understand why I couldn't be blessed with normal looking skin. I actually take good care of my skin, I'm careful with what I do with it yet I'm plagued with so many skin problems. I think about how my friend literally doesn't wash her face (she lives in florida, with all that heat, sweat, and humidity) and yet she's the one that has smooth, porcelain skin. I had to explain to her what benzoyl peroxide was the other day because she's never had acne, she's never had a pimple in her life. What the fuck. I can't help but compare myself to people. I don't like going outside anymore to do things, and all I can think about at work is how disgusting my face is. I rush home everyday so I can hide inside because I hate my face. I hate looking in mirrors so I avoid them. If I see my reflection all I see is the disgusting red marks and bumps that's my face. I'm at the end of my rope here. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Submitted by BlueMemory
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