Beauty Tips For Body Care
This is my skin.My skin has been getting progressively worse since I was about 13. When I hit college, it got pretty bad. I had panic attacks, really dark depression, and I became reclusive and skipped class because of my skin.Finally my parents were nice enough to take me to people who treated acne. I was on BPO, mandelic acid, strict diet, and a combination of their moisturizer, facial cleanser and sunscreen.It was a long, painful, extremely expensive process, but it worked and my skin was perfect for the first time in forever.Then, things happened, my education became more expensive, and the regimen was a difficult expense. I was also getting extremely irritated by the rigidity of my diet and routine, and I was unhappy. It gave me clear skin but didn't "work" for me if that makes sense. I went cold turkey last fall.Meanwhile, I was stuck with a list of ingredients I could not put on my face. This left me with limited makeup options, one face-wash option, one sunscreen option, and still no moisturizers. Again, my problem is everything is so expensive and I don't want to rely on expensive products.Now, my skin is worse than ever, I'm guessing because the BPO could have destroyed whatever good bacteria was on my face.I'm creeping back into nightly panic attacks, class skipping, and suicidal thoughts.My first reaction is "put me on fucking accutane, anything but this", but I'm concerned about antibiotics because 1. I was a C-section baby, leaving me with already weak biota and 2. I am in the medical field, and will be exposed to pathogens on a regular basis, and I don't want to weaken my defenses. I also have a history of mental illness and it can be exacerbated.In a perfect world, I would just be cured of acne. I can go backpack for months on end without having to carry products with me. I can have pizza with my friends and not flip out when I wake up with a pizza face. I can wear inexpensive moisturizers. I can actually have fun with makeup and not check ingredients. I don't know if that's a possibility for me.This is extra hard because I see patients. I can't have patients seeing me with horrid skin, because they'll likely assume I don't take care of myself. I don't know how to establish rapport with anyone looking like this.My routine now, my sad, sad routine:AM: Witch hazel, sunscreenPM: Wash with neutrogena foaming cleanser, witch hazel, one side curology and one side tretinoin (testing if either is better than the other), vaseline because my old derm's moisturizer is stupid expensive and everything else breaks me out. I need something.Skin is on the dry side.What I've tried: BPO (turned my fair skin red), curology for like 2 months now, tretinoin .25, asian sunscreens (breakouts), cerave pm (breakouts), teatree oil (no difference), birthcontrol (hahaha), getting regular facials, OCM, doing the whole no makeup no anything no washing just letting your skin be (first of all, still bad skin, second of all, not covering it up gave me panic attacks in class).I change my pillowcases, don't touch my face, use silk pillows, yadayadayada. My skin remains.I don't know anymore. I'm a long time lurker but I don't even know where to begin.Things I'm wondering about: PCOS, thyroid disorder, my hormones are just fucked up maybe. I'm trying to get blood tests to see what my levels are.Ok.Sorry that was a lot.
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