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and because of this struggle, I just want to say thank you to SCA and to wish me luck...I'm a digital entrepreneur with an insane work schedule. Due to the stresses that come with this, I got into a really nasty cycle. I already have OCD/ADHD as it is but due to my work, I started developing OCD/ADHD related anxiety. This anxiety and my compulsions manifested in the form of staring at myself in the mirror for hours, picking my skin, fighting emotionally with my acne and picking the KP on my arms for stress relief. I have scars all over the tops of my arms now and an irritated face from trying to "fix" it with improper product.I have never been a confident person appearance wise (I'm bone skinny, pale, etc) but I always valued myself mentally so I wasn't heavily paralyzed before on my looks until the last few months. I had acne growing up but for the past few years, my skin was glowing. The ego is the enemy because due to this confidence mentally, every once in a while I feel like I need the looks to match the mind to be "complete". I thought I can't go on a date or have a meeting or something unless my skin was perfect.It all started when I was misinformed on acne medication like most of you once were. I did some various treatments and "techniques" that ended up really breaking me out far worse than I was. My skin had/has CC's everywhere, it was insanely irritated somedays and worst of all I put myself through forming PIE/H in several areas due to my picking.Because of this, I started becoming more antisocial, I didn't want to leave the house because I felt like I wasn't "perfect" or at the level of appearance that my friends used to "know" me as."If I come out now, they will see all this acne on my face... will they judge me now? Am I not the same person I once was? Will they know I am dealing with this 'disease'? I guess I need to wait longer for it to heal" I might have said to myself...My acne made me feel like I had a giant target or spotlight on my faceWhen you have OCD and anxiety, it's like there is a never-ending loop of thoughts... they are exactly what the disorder says, obsessive compulsions! But you have to remember... THESE THOUGHTS ARE LIES AND DO NOT REFLECT REALITY. DO NOT LISTEN TO THEM.Due to these thoughts, they put me into that nasty cycle I mentioned...Feel the need to look at skin > pick acne > get anxiety > be antisocial because of said acne and anxiety > get anxiety because lack of social activity and care for health > pick at skin and acne more to relieve said anxiety/ocd > be more antisocial > repeat repeat repeat this constant loopI've had enough of this shit.I started becoming a lurker of SCA 2 months ago and I just wanted to say thank you. You guys have given me so much hope. For once in my life, I feel like I finally have found someone who understands what this silly loop I have been stuck in feels like. I also want to say thank you for educating me and providing valuable resources to the world on proper acne education.I started my acne.org treatment today and plan on sticking through till I see results god willing.Again, thank you.The mind is a crazy thing, it's quite wild how something like acne can paralyze a person but I'm done being paralyzed.
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