[Personal] Rant on why I hate being a POC who is really into skincare

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Title says it all. It seems like so few products work on me, while they work on my white friends nearly instantly.Asian products break my heart with all their "whitening" this and "brightening" that. I want to remain the same colour I am, but I just want to be more even!Even on that front, it's so bloody easy for so many of my white and Asian friends to just get over PIE and PIH. They barely scar to begin with, and that shit disappears in a weeks or - for the really lucky ones - just a few days.Speaking of PIE and PIH... Gosh, I can't even tell mine apart. I have no idea what is or isn't one or the other on my face. I've a buttload of dark scarring on my right cheek, and it's post inflammatory alright, but I don't know if it's hyperpig or erythema.Some people have said when I press down on it, does it turn white? Imma tell you right now. NOTHING on my face or body turns white when I press down on it. So it must be PIH, right?Apparently not. According to a number of people who have looked at my face, a lot of the scars are reddish, so they must be PIE, right?Apparently not, again. A bunch of others disagree and think its hyperpig.Why is scarring such an uphill battle for darker skin types?I know for a fact all my feelings are exacerbated by being home. This is the first time I've been at my parents' home in several weeks, and we have family from overseas staying here at the moment. Why my family assumes we're all so chummy and they can be super-vocal about whatever they please is beyond me. Both my mum and my aunt are constantly badgering about my scarring... as if I'm not aware I have it. As if it affects them more than me, somehow. I should just say "I'll fade my scars when you (my aunt) can regrow your bald spot and you (my mum) can lose 50lbs."Sometimes, I just hate being a woman and I hate being this skin colour, and more often than not, I hate my family.God help me.P.S. This is not to disparage the white people on this subreddit. Our journeys are all different and I don't mean to make light of your battle. I just need a little vent. Advice welcome.
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