[Personal] I wish I didn't know anything about skincare...

Beauty Tips For Body Care
Honestly, I know way too much. Especially for a guy in college that should be out living life and doing stuff. None of my friends know that I have a routine, and I know none of them use anything besides soap and a drugstore face wash. I've never admitted to anyone that I know all this stuff. My family thinks it's weird that I have a whole stash of products.But the thing is, I wish I didn't have these products. I wish I didn't spend the hundreds that I've spent and I wish I didn't spend so much time researching and learning about acne. I've spent hours and hours looking through posts, blogs, studies, product websites. I know all about effective pH levels for cleansers and acids, I the different types of AHAs and what it does, I know what salicylic acid does, what Benzoyl Peroxide does. I know dozens of beneficial ingredients aswell as the bad ones in my products. I could go on for a long time, but likely you all know this, and I've made my point.I know all this stuff, but it doesn't seem to help all that much. Even good products, a solid routine, diet, and good habits can't help me. How nice it would be to be care free, to worry about the other problems in life.But I worry about my acne, and how I get it all over my face, the front and back of my neck, my arms back, thighs, and how I get KP (hundreds of small bumps) all over my arms.I can't afford to keep trying new stuff. My bank account has suffered and so has my mental health. How can I love myself and be confident when I can't even look in the mirror. I haven't worn a short sleeve t-shirt in 2 years, and I skipped out on going to the beach and lake all summer.But I'd love to go out and do that stuff. To eat whatever I wanted, to wear any clothes I want to. And I know people will say " you can still do that". That's true, but it doesn't mean I want to or that I'm brave enough. If I get clear skin, I will be so grateful. But that won't come for a long time, and I'm psychologically drained and my patience is running thin. I can only do this for so long, to take care of my skin and have it only rebel. To have pimples pop up in previously clear areas and some of them hurt me when I move certain parts of my body. It's not really fair.
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