Thursday, 27 December 2018

[Personal] Words I'd never imagined hearing. After struggling for 18 years I was told by a stranger yesterday I had the skin of a model. (long)

Beauty Tips For Body Care
I'm a woman and since the age of 13 I've struggled with constant breakouts and the mental turmoil its brought. Perhaps you can relate to how easy it is to mentally torture ourself, it feels like a manifestation of all our faults that people can directly see on the most exposed part of our body. Any time we ever felt ugly or mentally low, acne seems to become the physical reflection of our problems. Just at Christmas I was talking to one of my male cousins about this. Due to having such bad acne growing up he had constantly slouched to avoid attention, curling his shoulders over to the point where he now has a prominently curved spine and back problems. Even after the acne has faded the scars run deep. For myself I actually managed to make peace with my skin. I have accepted I would never in my life experience a day without a pimple and found positive ways to feel about this. Much of my depression was healed through Buddhist practice and I found that with it, i didn't care so much about how I looked or felt, I stopped wearing any makeup over 5 years ago now. I actually do feel lucky to experience this suffering so that I can know what others deal with too. The one thing that caused me to stop on this sub earlier this year looking for advice, was something I don't think often gets mentioned in general when it comes to bad skin, and that's how painful physically it can get. It's not always just how it looks, or how it makes us feel in terms of attractiveness or confidence. It's physically having wounds, painful lumps, pus filled, tingly and tight, throbbing pustules that can weep and bleed and scab and itch. My skin is dry, sensitive and I'm prone to rosacea and eczema. I started a new job that was in a dirty environment, I'd have to wear masks and goggles and other safety wear, and it would rub on my skin, at the end of the day i'd be covered in dust and my skin got worse. So I decided for my physical health I would start to take better care of my body and I've been experimenting with my routine for the best part of 2018. I'm still trying to find my groove, but I think the majority of the works done now and I no longer have painful skin, nor for the first time in 18 years, any pimples. Then unexpectedly this Christmas I received 2 compliments on my skin. Some comments from family as we ate our dinner which I brushed off as normal (after all everyones skin looks better after some rest). But surprisingly another came from a friend of my Aunts who I hadn't met before. She said I had lovely skin that glows, and I could be a model...I know of course she was just being kind, by no means is my skin perfect, but still. Never in a million years did I think I would hear anybody saying I had nice skin, ever. It's surreal. I'm so pleased this community exists, especially for the younger generation because I know at that age we are the most vulnerable. I only wish I had found this sub myself 18 years ago, a lot would be different I think. Finally I would like to say, for those of us afflicted by imperfect skin the real healing has to come from finding peace.Don't just try to heal your skin for the sake of others, or how you'll look, don't base your self worth on your skin, waiting for the day you'll hear someone say you have the skin of a model. A famous Buddhist master has said, 'it seems as if the whole world is afflicted by madness, because they think that beauty is only skin deep.' Do it because your health demands it. It's not about looking good, making others find you attractive. It's not about stopping unsolicited comments or questions about 'what did you do to your face?'. That will all come naturally. It's because you need to find peace and contentment to be happy. To feel beautiful means to realise your own good qualities, especially the non-physical ones such as love and kindness. So do what you need to do to be at peace with your skin, others, your life and everything in it, and you will become truely beautiful. Everything else will take care of itself.
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