[Acne] [Personal] My acne is not just ruining my life, but my whole family's lives.

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(for context, I'm 25/F)​this is mostly a venting post... just hoping there's someone out there who has been in my position. I'm feeling really low right now.​I've never had great skin, but it took a turn for the worse around December. Obviously hormonal--huge painful red cysts and closed comodones on my cheeks and chin. I had been wanting to take out my mirena IUD for a while (for many reasons) and figured it was because of that so I took it out... and it only got worse.I've basically become a recluse and only leave the house when I absolutely have to, because it's so exhausting to spend 1hr+ trying to cover up my acne with makeup (I have very fair skin, so the acne + hyperpigmentation is very red and visible), and that just makes me look like a gross cakeface. I feel awful for my two year old son, who is spending more and more time on the ipad/TV because we're running out of activities to do at home (or because I need to distract him while I take foreverrrr getting ready).I finally visited the derm a couple months ago, he gave me adapalene gel and minocycline and things have only gotten WORSE (I didn't think they could!!??). I know about the purge, and was expecting it, but it only made me fall apart emotionally.went back to the derm today, and he put me on spiro, tret, a couple other things yada yada. I have a little hope that things will get better, but I know it can take a while. like six months. like a year. I am just sitting here in tears thinking about the lame summer my son is going to have because I am afraid to go outside and have people see me like this.not only that, but my plan was to get pregnant sometime before 2020. with all these meds and at the rate this will probably go, it doesn't look like that is happening. once I get clear skin (however long it takes), I want a while to actually enjoy it instead of getting pregnant and dealing with acne again. I'm completely throwing off our family plans because of my stupid skin.​I feel extremely selfish. I wish acne didn't affect me so much, but it does. I can't pass a mirror without wanting to cry or getting angry. I can't look anyone in the eye, and this is when I have a pound of makeup covering my face.​any other moms dealing with severe acne? how do you not let it affect your life so much? I feel like the worst mom in the world.
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