[Personal] Being a server while having severe cystic acne

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I’ve been a sever for over five years, I’ve been lucky enough to serve at the same restaurant for all five years and make some amazing regulars. I’ve had great skin my whole life up until about a year and a half ago, now I suffer from SEVERE cystic hormonal acne. I don’t wear makeup as I feel uncomfortable in it and I don’t want to feel like I need it to be happy. Pretty much just slap on some tinted sunscreen (Australian Gold) and call it good. Anyways, I was working my usual shift this evening and was pleasantly surprised to serve some of my regulars I haven’t seen in awhile. We’re catching up and one of them looks at me with more of a concerned sympathetic look and point to his face and asks what’s up (with my face). This has happened to me twice now in about a month span and my usual response now is to just say it’s stress related. I had to walk away from the table and take some time to calm myself down and push the tears back considering I had a full section at the time and had no time for crying. I’m well aware of how my face looks, I see it everyday and it DEVASTATES me. My job is very face to face, the first time I had a guest ask me what’s wrong with my face it destroyed me and I haven’t been able to look people in eye ever since. At this point I just feel f—- terrible about myself and that’s why I’m making this post I guess. Not many people I know truly know what it’s like to suffer from cystic acne and I know a lot of us do so I figured coming here to vent was a safe space to so. I just want to feel comfortable in my skin again someday and I want people to see me for ME, not my acne. Unfortunately my job is a lot about how I look and present myself, still nothing gives someone the right to make me feel like complete trash though. Luckily I have an amazing dishwasher I work with on Friday evenings and he consoled me so I could go back out and serve the rest of my tables, and yes finish the table that completely embarrassed me.Anyways, all I really needed was to vent. Thanks for coming to my ted talk.
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