[Skin Concerns] Need to have a rant about my acne

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I've been on tetracycline, erythromycin, lymecycline, benzoyl peroxide, topical shit, other oral medications I can't remember the name. Loads of shop bought skincare products and regimes before and after that.I've had bad acne since the last year of primary school, I was 10 years old when it started, I was the only one who had it in my school year. I'm 19 now, nearly half my life with fucking acne.I've been on two courses of high dosage roaccutane/isotretinion or however you like to call it, each time for over a year. The NHS dermatologist consultant I used to see called her colleagues into her office to discuss my medication because she hadn't seen someone with such an unusually long and high dose before. I was having blood tests every few weeks to make sure my liver could take it.And after I ended both those courses of it, long as they were, all the dry skin and nosebleeds and sensitivity to the sun, I was on no medication, and the acne FUCKING CAME BACK AGAIN, TIME AND TIME AGAIN. Both times after roaccutane it came back again, the first time just as bad, the second time a bit better but still quite big on my cheeks and leaving so many big purple marks all over my cheeks and dips in my temples and forehead.And my last course of roaccutane was over 4 years ago. All that relatively clear skin for the last few months of the course gone completely, wiped away by wave after wave after wave of unrelenting red bumps and whiteheads and big purple scars. I can see two big lumps on my right cheek now just by pointing my eye down. I've been taking lymecycline prescribed by my GP for over two years now and it just keeps it in this state, I suppose I should be grateful it doesn't regress and go back to how it was in secondary school.Fucking reeeeeee, sorry, it's late at night sad nibba hours and i'm reflecting on the ugly state of my face. Kids stare at me in the street when I walk to university and go past three schools. Good job no one ever sees me without a shirt because there isn't any decent skin on my chest and upper back, just pockmarked and ravaged with scars and dots.
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