[Trigger Warning][Skin Concerns] For the past few years I've only showered a few times

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Trigger Warning, gross stuffFirst, I wanna say that i'm extremely embarrassed writing about this. And more embarrassed that I reached this stage. So please no judgment and lay off of me ok.I (17f) have a history of abuse, self harm and severe depression. For the past few years or so I've been so extremely depressed that the act of showering was a chore. It's not just that i'm lazy. Showering makes me really anxious and scared and i'm only comfortable when i'm dirty and smelly. I know I need help and i'm taking baby steps.As a result, my skin looks terrible. It looks like the skin of a 60 years old homeless person. It's super rough and dry and there's few small brown patches scattered around my back and shoulders.I want to get better. I thought I start with showering but no matter how many times I shower my skin still looks the same. Please help.Before you tell me to see a dermatologist you need to know that writing this post was so humiliating and embarrassing. I need to at least look clean before I see anyone.
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