Beauty Tips For Body Care
I don’t know why I can’t get over it. I think my obsession is ruining my skin more than helping it.When I first started skincare, I was only like 12 or 13 and I started it because i saw youtubers doing it. I introduced a lot of products all at one (cleanser, toner, mositurizer, sunscreen, etc) and ever since then my skin has never been the same. I swear my skin was great before i even started skin care.My main problem has been red bumps on my cheeks i think i’ve always had theseI don’t even get acne often, it’s just that this has been my main insecurity because it makes my cheeks red, and it’s often irritating, especially after i rub my cheeks when putting on products.But I think i managed to help it with this routine:1) Vanicream gentle cleanser 2) TO Alpha Arbutin + Ascorbic acid to lighten scars 3) Mandelic Acid 2x a week 4) First aid beauty ultra repair cream 5) Missha sunscreen whenever i went outMy skin seemed to improve a lot. The redness was mainly gone, the bumps as well. My skin was smoother than normal I was happier. I rarely got break outs and most important of all: I was not as obsessed with my skin. I could go the whole day without analyzing it.I don’t know what changed, but last week i suddenly became hyper focused on my skin. I dropped the acids because i got paranoid that they were damaging my skin. I started using an eye cream which i think has made me break out slightly around my eye area, and I started using a Propolis toner which i also think has made me break out and has also irritated the bumps on my cheeks.My skin has been at its worst this week, and I can’t stop focusing on it. Constantly, I look for a mirror and analyze my skin up close: Pointing out every flawI feel like i can’t focus. My insecurities and obsessions have been amplified tenfold and i can’t even focus on my favorite tv shows without looking up more stuff about skincare, i don’t know what’s wrong with me.Now I have break outs around my chin, my cheeks are irritated and inflamed, and i still can’t stop hyper analyzing my skin. Ive been told i have good skin but everything just seems wrong to me. For example, the nasolabial folds that i’ve been told everyone has always looks terrible on me and im terrified of looking old.I’ve gotten so vain this year im sorry if that makes me sound terrible. I can’t stop looking at myself in the mirror and i can’t decide what to feel. One week I’ll be incredibly confident in myself, even constantly taking pictures because i feel so beautiful. The next week i’ll feel terrible and hate everything about my appearance, including my skinI’ve deleted instagram and tiktok since these are two social media platforms that have done nothing but make me incredibly insecure of my skin.The worst part is, I am still obsessed with skin care and I can’t decide what to do. I just can’t stop nothing the blemishes. I feel like everything burns which is weird since my skin isn’t even that irritated or has that many breakouts. I think it’s just my mind convincing me of that. Even now, I’m looking back at the photos I took, and the redness and bumps don’t seem as bad as I thought they did? For some reason i thought they looked absolutely terribleI guess I should probably drop all new products and go back to my old routine with just a cleanser, moisturizer, sunscreen, and Mandelic acid 1x or 2x a week (I’ll start with the mandelic acid first, and then i might go back to using ascorbic as well)I also bought a cosrx snail mucin essence since i heard it was really good, but i don’t think i’ll use it until my skin clears up and calms down entirely and i have patch tested thoroughly.I just wanted to vent because this has been causing a lot of stress in my life. Which is dumb since im just a teenager and i shouldn’t be so worried about my skin. I really just need to stop being so obsessed over my skin. It’s gotten to a point where I am constantly analyzing myself in the mirror like every hour.I just wish i could see a dermatologist but the problem is the price.i guess i just have a lot of insecurities, that all seem to come out when it comes to skincare
Girls Blog 2015
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