[Misc] Dysmorphia about aging and changing when you take for granted that you have good skin or look younger?

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Hopefully it doesn't sound too vain or shallow, but I wonder if this resonates for anyone else?I think for a lot of people like us, it's part of our identity to have a great skincare routine with glowing skin and that's so often accompanied by looking 10 years or more younger than our real ages. Obviously nothing lasts forever but when something is a constant in your life, the prospect of it being ripped away from you out of your control is terrifying. It effectively means becoming a whole new person and readjusting to a new life all over again. The longer you have something, harder it is to lose it.Yes obviously what's on the inside matters most, but what I'm often struggling to get across to some people is that you DO get judged or treated differently based on your looks. Perhaps it's not fair or not right, but attractive people do get treated better in both social and professional environments.Whenever somebody tries to give me a "love yourself the way you are/embrace your age" hippie speech, I know they mean well but it's so annoying and I feel like they're missing the fundamental underlying issue.Just personally I never got degraded or anything when I was like 27 and still looked 17 because I think that emo pretty boy look just suits everything about me and my personality, so I literally cry and obsess over every imperfection and fine line, thinking that it's wrecking my smooth skin and I'm literally rotting before my eyes. And on a good day when I'm proud of the skin I still have, I get so scared thinking "How much longer can this possibly last?"I'm 38 meaning I'll literally be 50 in 12 years so I won't be able to dodge looking like a "middle-aged dad" type forever, lol. I feel like my quality of life would never be the same or be as good anymore without perfect skin (I get salty whenever anyone guesses I'm in my early 30s that's only a few years younger and my mind sees it as "well I can't pass for my 20s anymore even 29 so I'm over the hill"). Some people do guess 20s too but enough also don't which is enough to worry me.I had a pretty disadvantaged rough hand at life in some respects, and I also might be a little on the ASD spectrum so I'm a bit behind the curve on life accomplishments and milestones, so at least for me perhaps looking young is a security blanket I don't want to lose?
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