Beauty Tips For Body Care
I have to shed some backstory on this so you can grasp the extent of my issue.It was the year 2012, December. Really close to Christmas, and I was in a battle to keep my relationship with my then SO.We broke up, because I guess she was bored with me because we were both young and I barely had money because I only had a part time job at the time.So, going through all of that was very heartbreaking for me. After 6 years I felt like I knew this person and then one day it was just...gone. Even though she said she loved me, she didn't want to be with me anymore....well I don't really consider that love.Anyways...so as parents have a way of doing, they try to make things right. Her parents were on my side the whole time, I mean I never cheated on her or treated her bad...we just didn't do a lot because things cost money that I didn't have back then.So through all of the breakup stuff, I was over her parents house every day...trying to get her to talk to me, but it never worked.Her father had given me money to buy her flowers to send to her work...things like that.None of that worked. So I began to lose interest in fighting for her...I never like her parents anyway and would always complain about them and I think that is the true reason she decided to leave me.So I told her parents that it was over, and they were like..hey anything you need man, if you need to talk to someone....blah blah blah...I was a good dude, so they genuinely liked me.I tried to go about life as normal...work and keep myself occupied. I was really depressed and felt like I wasted so much of my life. We got together when I was 18, now I'm 27. We were together for six years.I eventually came to terms with the fact it was just over...what a shitty feeling btw.It was around January 2013 sometime that I noticed something not right with my right hand...a spot on the back of my hand began to get hard and a circular patch of skin was growing each day.I've never had a wart in my life, so I started thinking...wtf, where did this come from.My ex's Dad...that's where. I remember seeing some really weird bumps on the side of one of his nostrils. They were like...piled on top of each other. At the time, I was like...gross. However I did not think anything of it until I started showing the same signs of this crap.So, naturally I was upset and angry. I harassed him about it, calling him on the phone yelling at him for giving me this virus. He of course, just denied it but...I'm not fucking stupid, that's where I got it from.It got bigger and bigger on my hand, and I didn't know what to do because I was unable to see the dermatologist on account of funds. I started noticing other small formations on my arm...then later on my feet (plantar), on my face....on my knees, on my arms and legs. On my neck, and its embarrassing to say this but I found a tiny tiny brown unraised spot on my penis shaft.I lost all control, I wanted to do something to this man. But....I didn't want to end up in prison.After a couple of months I had saved enough to see the dermatologist. I didn't want to write down what was wrong because I was just too fucking embarrassed....so I wrote 'acne' on the symptoms list.I went into the office and sat down in the examination room. A nurse starting questioning me, all that crap they write down before the doctor comes in.So this doctor comes in...as confident as can be...she looks at my face for literally 30 seconds and says...it's acne not warts.I had disbelief in her diagnosis...I said it's acne huh...well then what is this, I showed her my right hand and my knees and my finger where on the underside it has a little white spot deep in the skin that wasn't there before.She totally changes her tune, oh.....THAT is a wart. But she still believe the lesions on my face were still acne.She goes and gets the big can of liquid nitrogen...I should have said no to this but I didn't know what else to do. She froze the wart on my hand really bad, and two more on my arm.That's when I said, please stop...no more of this freezing crap, I'm done. The places that were frozen had became horrible scabs over the next few days, I was draining puss out of them constantly and my skin became horribly scarred after the scabs healed.I was seriously angry and depressed and felt like again finding that guy and murdering him or something. It became what I thought about every day...every time I looked in the mirror, every time I looked at my hand...every time I wiped my face and could feel little lumps under the skin that never go away.I was so devastated that I began to lose my hair from the stress. I was and still am afraid to have contact with anyone....This eats me up...really bad. Especially when I noticed that I had begun spreading the virus to unsuspecting people at my job...my friends. Pretty much anyone I have contact with may get it because it's highly contagious.My family all have a little bump on the side of their cheek, and I know exactly what it is.....and I feel like killing myself sometimes....it's just not fucking fair.The doctor visit did nothing for me. The places that had been frozen still have warty tissue near them...now I have terrible scars on my hand and I still have warts....it sucks because I work with my hands at work constantly.I tried every goddamn thing imaginable, I tried home remedies...homeopathy....I tried to eat better....I tried to leave them alone for a long time....no successNOTHING is working...I don't know what to do anymore, I wanted to sue the guy for negligent affliction of emotional stress because this is seriously ruining my entire life...but that didn't work because I wouldn't be able to actually prove that he spread that to me.So all the way from becoming infected in 2012...to today 2016...I have no hope from relieving myself of the grips of this rogue virus.I've never had warts before this, I never thought that it would consume my daily thoughts...I can't even be intimate with a girl for fear of it.I want to go back to the dermatologist and see if they can prescribe me some wart cream...I've done quite a bit of research the past couple of years...goddamn I want to ball up and fucking cry...huuuh I don't wish this on anybody I swear...it's humiliating and infuriating.I found a cream that is concentrated green tea extract...it's called verengen...and it is for genital warts, but it also says it is for recalcitrant warts that don't respond to other forms of treatment...I'm....so ready...to be done....Does anyone have experience with a topical cream that actually works against warts on the face?I can't walk around work with duct tape, or liquid bandage, or nail polish...I need something I can put on at night or when I get off of work...I've tried all kinds of natural remedies including all the fruits that aid in eliminating the wart tissue...they just leave my skin raw and do not help at all with these warts....I need help...I'm in serious need of some fucking help man....this fucking sucks, I can't believe this has caused so much stress over the years for me...and it's still not gone.The worst thing, the absolute worst thing...is knowing where this came from, and that I'm spreading it to people I come in contact with...I just want to be cured.My family thinks I'm crazy for being so upset about this...but I know that people...that have this shit, it really just fucking eats you totally up...you want it to be gone so bad. You don't want to go out, see your friends, and I know exactly how that shit feels....I am so depressed.I shake a lot of peoples hands in the business that I'm in and I don't know what to do but I need some type of advice from someone who has had success on getting rid of this...I need suggestions...I feel like I'm going to have this stuff forever.If I don't get rid of this one day, I think I might actually go crazy....kill myself, or something...fuck me man. Life is so ruined....Somebody...anybody...please...help.
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