[Acne] Dermatillomania- just broke down and destroyed my face, how screwed am I and what can I do to make it better? (pics)

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So ever since summer started I've been extremely fixated on my skin, scouring the Internet for remedies and leaving the house rarely. I'm a high school girl and I work very hard on every other physical aspect of my appearance, but my acne is the one thing I've been unable to control and it's been extremely difficult. I also have severe anxiety and OCD, which led to me developing Dermatillomania around age 9. My skin is a mess, and I'm so absolutely fed up. I've been crying about it way too much, and I'm so upset by it. I have a boyfriend who I'm ashamed to see because I'm so embarrassed by my acne, which is EVERYWHERE (face, chest, shoulders, back, etc). I feel disgusting. I've been working out, eating way healthier than before, and trying solely natural face products but nothing is working and I'm so fed up, words can't even describe.I've been breaking out really badly for the past week (PMS) and I've been trying so hard not to pick but I was taking my makeup off about 15 minutes ago and I completely just freaked out and pulled out my blackhead extractor tool and absolutely destroyed my face. I'm so ashamed, I don't know what to do.This is what triggered me to do it, I don't know what they are but they just formed recently: https://imgur.com/a/63aH8And now my face looks like this: https://imgur.com/a/FlcqHI seriously have no idea what to do, I'm so upset right now. I have a huge event in 2 weeks that I've been trying to clear my skin for and I'm pretty sure I 100% just ruined my chances. As soon as I snapped out of it I washed my face with Cetaphil gentle skin cleaner and cold water, and then applied a sea salt toner and will most likely apply aloe later.How screwed is my face now? I'm lucky that my face normally heals relatively quickly but I'm terrified that I'll break out in huge cysts now, as I've never picked my face so hard/so much. Is there anything to do to try and make it better, aside from (obviously) not touching my face at all, which I should've just done in the first place?TL;DR; Just broke down and destroyed the hell out of my face (see pics above) ,now freaking out because I have a big event in 2 weeks that I was trying to clear my skin for. Am I screwed? What can I do to try to prevent infection?
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